I fail at budgeting

I wonder how people budget their money to buy groceries.
I am terrible at this.

Should I make a list?
Should I not buy over my cash budget?
Should I not use my sup cc for this?

I should just be using about 500 for groceries and even after contemplating for things, I end up with 1,772.20 for my first one for 2019.

I actually bought a water container so that is about 469.75. I am living alone and I don't have a refrigerator. I want to put water in a safe place that gives me the option to add ice to it. Also if I am marketing vita juices this would come in handy. So I accept that is a big purchase this time.

I tried to not buy canned goods that were over 20php but that is hard to come by now especially because the one I like is 27php at least. I like Century Tuna because the others are really too fishy for my taste.

My grocery list was

1 Crab and Corn (I like this and I wanna try eating more soup. Since I don't know how to cook any from scratch I would have to buy them for now.)
Downy and Ariel liquid soap (I didn't buy the bottled ones because I can't carry it too heavy maybe next time)
1 small bottle of Zonrox color safe (it seemed better to buy in a bottle. This was lighter than the Downy and Ariel ones.)
1 pack of the seaweed flavor shake thingy for chicken (I plan to use the breading and the seaweed flavoring separately.)
A box of baking gloves (100 pieces - I need it for cooking and cleaning since I have to clean my apartment from time to time. I know this is single use plastic but I need it since I don't like rubber gloves at all.)
A bunch of beef loaf, meat loaf, sardines, and corned beef (they were the ones with cheaper than 20php canned goods)
2 regular sized Century Tuna Flakes in Oil (emergency food provision)
2 regular sized Hunt's pork and Beans (emergency food provision)
1 small bottle of fish sauce, soysauce and cooking oil
1 Hunt's tomato ketchup (I chose the bottle that is plastic since it looks refillable to me.)
1 small bottle of Head and Shoulders Lemon
1 small refill for Johnson's liquid soap
1 small can of Jolly mushroom (I wanna try out if I like mushrooms that I cook. I don't have a problem with other people's mushroom dishes. I had to resist buying sauce to go with this. I will just look for a recipe that uses soy sauce with mushrooms. I also saw shitake mushrooms in a can. I will get around to that when I learn how to cook regular mushrooms.)
1 set of plastic reusable food containers (the glass ones are heavy and expensive but I will buy them next time)
1 bag of cheese cake (for emergency breakfast and snacking at work)
1 small plastic container of strawberry stick-o (for snacking at work)
1 ecobag (I forgot mine, I know it's my fault.)

I am going to get whacked when the bill comes out again so I should make sure to use them well.
I still have a bunch of stuff I really need to buy.

A induction oven ready POT. I will buy one that can cook pasta so that I wouldn't need to buy a small one and a large one. I should be able to cook some stuff with that and the pan that I already have. I would only make these big purchases for January then not make anymore for the rest of the year. I want to make sure that I can handle all the cooking I want to do.

I also need two trash containers. One for daily trash and one for recyclables. I should buy a big one and a small one and get some bio-plastics or keep all the paper bags that I encounter in my daily life.
I can't do the stuff that eco-friendly folks do and I am not going to even attempt to go that extreme. But I already have a reusable straw from my office-mate and that seems like a good place to start. I would need to get a thermal travel tumbler later on. I will ask the universe to send me one through other people.

I also want to buy clothes. One per paycheck if possible. I really don't have any decent clothes that I picked out. Almost all my clothes look like they are something my mom would wear because literally since I got fatter, I only had clothes from her "bin" since I hate shopping. They are economical and useful but not at all a reflection of my personality. I like green and solid clothes. I also need some clothes for exercising. I wouldn't mind spending more than usual because from my experience when I buy cheap stuff, they don't last for a very long time. And I have to buy yet another cheap one. It's okay for pajamas but for everyday and work clothes, it is really not a good thing.

I will update you if I ever learn any budgeting stuff on my own.
If you have any tips to give me, let me know.

2019 : No Excuses

I am returning to this blog after many years of not using it.
This is partly because I miss blogging and hope to do it again.
I don't have the face to do vlogs nor the patience to edit videos.
I would most likely just be posting about daily things and it would be unbelievably boring.
But yeah. I am really back.

This year my POWER PHRASE is NO EXCUSES

It is hard to choose this pair of words because I think I am the laziest person that I know.
BUT for 2019, I want to do many things and there are just no more room for excuses.
I am going to be 35 in 2019 and I won't think I should live in a way that is not sustainable for me.

So there are a few things I want to do this year. No pressure to finish them all but no excuses not to try either.

#NoExcuses1 : VITA+ my life

I want to join the VitaACE team. 

I got a great opportunity with some people. So I am saving up for a chance to be a part of that group.
Even if I am not in the first 30, I will save to get the money for it.

#NoExcuses2 : Say Bye to 20KG 

I want to lose weight and I think the best I can do would be 10 to 20 kilograms.

I will start with stretching first then move on to actual exercises. I haven't done any actual exercise in YEARS. So I have to take it one step at a time. I did my first stretching in years this morning. It was hard. I used to do it so easily when I was a varsity player so I regret not doing it continuously after high school. I could have kept my health problems at bay and kept my slim body if I did.

#NoExcuses3 : ERDR - Eat Right, Drink Right!

I want to eat right and drink right. 

I don't drink alcohol anymore since getting GERD but I have yet to eat right. I want to switch to better and fresh food. This means I have to learn how to cook them. I am helpless on this front so I have to make an effort to learn. I live alone now so I can cook in my place and no one would know if I sucked or not. I have to give up regular soda for some other options life Life Cola. If I am going to make juices, I hope I can keep up to just drinking VitaPlus juices. My mom said she likes the guyabano flavor. As for me, I want to try all the flavors and see which one is my favorite.
It's not about going on one of those trendy diet that actually works on others. It's more on changing my relationship with food and cooking. I need to learn how to cook to eat the food I want without having to be subjected to other people's recipes that are often too high on sodium and other bad stuff.

#NoExcuses4 : Side Dishes Jjang!

I want to learn how to make at least five Korean banchan.

This is going to be really hard but I hope that I can make it. So that I would be able to get things going. I hope to buy a ref in the future so I can store them longer. But for now, I would put it in a cooler so I can it them within two days at least. I won't be making big portions since I live by myself. The ones in the Korean stores are just too expensive for me to buy on a regular basis. If I can learn how to make some of them, that would give me enough confidence to try the more complicated dishes. I have ZERO cooking skills and I can barely make an omelet. Most of the stuff I make ends up looking like a jeon. So I guess I have one side dish down.

#NoExcuses5: WritoNoExcuso

I want to write more and not be lazy on my deadlines.
I won't be returning to Fiverr since I realized that it really isn't my style. I would focus on things on Essays.ph and fiction writing.
I want to finish a story to send to PHR this year. No matter what happens, rejection or not, I just want to e-mail them one manuscript.

I am in no way the cafe-writer that some are. I need to have my own noisy space to write and talk out loud. I would often say the lines my characters say so it's not a good idea to pop open my archaic laptop in a cafe and write there pretentiously.

#NoExcuses6 : Pay Yes Swipe No!

I want to clean up my credit. Even from Mombank.

I need to pay off my phone. Then I want to buy a new laptop. I really need one for writing and work.
I should limit myself to Pentagon and Blackpink related expenses for this year. Or at the very least YG & Pentagon related expenses. For the rest, I won't even bother.

#NoExcuses7:  SHOW ME THE SHOW MONEY!

I want to save money for my show money for South Korea. 
I heard it's a bit much so I should work hard for that.

#NoExcuses8: KPOPforACause 

I want to do birthday charity work and prepare for the Pentagon 3rd Anniversary properly. I would be setting aside money for those things.

#NoExcuses9 : Paymaya Karduh!

I need to get a physical Paymaya Card. I will use it more this year and hopefully switch my paypal to be connected to my paymaya instead of the sup cc I have right now.

I know what you are thinking, why get rid of my sup cc when I have it? It's not helping me control my spending. But with PayMaya I have to put money on my account for the card to work, even for online shopping. 

For the most part I would be using this for Fanmaum charity projects. 

#NoExcuses10: LEGIT Universe!

I need to get my fancafe account to associate member again in the Pentagon Fancafe. I already got the first and second official membership card (the second one is coming soon). I have been downgraded to regular member from associate member due to the issues from last year and was too lazy to get it verified again. So I will be doing that with my Thumbs Up! Album before it is too late.

This was the first Universe membership kit had in it.
I still hate the thief who took my photobook.
May you rot in the darkest part of the universe.

#NoExcuses11: Bonus for Eomma

I want to give my bonus to my mom not to pay off something but just really just give it to her to spend on whatever she wants.
I have been giving her my bonus for a couple of years now but mostly to pay off my sup cc debt.

#NoExcuses12: #365days on IG 

I am doing the #365 photos thing on IG so I can post more about the things I do and see. I am not dating anyone right now so there won't be any weird lovestagram things there. My IG is synced with my Facebook while my FB sends my public posts on Twitter. But since IG is posted on FB as private it might not get synced to Twitter. But doesn't matter. I rarely check my Twitter account anyway.

It started with Familia posts #1of365 and would move on to the rest of the year. Even if I can't post them on the actual day, I hope to take daily photos making every single day. I don't want 2019 to pass without me knowing that the heck I went through. It's something for old me to look back on when I am forgetful and nostalgic. So be prepared to see a lot of GOLDEN PIG me (although I am an OX) this year! Follow me on IG - pinaywriter. As for Facebook, I still don't add people but the follow button should be available. THIS IS ME 

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I hope that I can continue to blog and write about my life in this blog. I don't want to let it go and I don't think I can ever forget the memories I had as a blogger. So since I can't move on to other modes, being RETRO is not such a bad thing.

I hope we all have a wonderful 2019!

Am I Back?

I miss writing on a blog. So I think I would go back to this. I am not sure if this is connected to anything else on my not so active facebook.
But yeah. Need to write more. So I wouldn't get too caught up in other things.
I can't keep an offline diary so I think it's a pretty good idea to go back to blogging, even just to remind me that something is going on in my life.

So where am I now. 80+ Kg. 31 going on 32 and single?
Still struggling in adulting despite the earnest support of friends. ^^
Still haven't finished a single Nanowrimo event successfully but haven't stopped joining. I keep telling myself I will do it next year more diligently. But yeah. November is MAMA season so that never actually comes to fruition.

I had a couple of crushes since my last post.
And that is significant since it's hard to get a crush these days, for fanjuhmas like me. (fan + ahjuhma) But still no Great Love Numero Dos. So in transition for that.

I am still gravely delayed in terms of my Kdrama level but there has been some really cool stuff coming out and I enjoy reading spoilers about them. I watch when I have time to download and stream.

I am into a new KPOP group called Pentagon and joined Black Pink Philippines to support Lisa and the gals. Then we merged Pentagon PH and Pentagon Philippines to support Hongseok and the other members of Pentagon.
Currently Pentagon is nominated in the Best New Male Artist category in MAMA and in last place. They debuted in October so that is pretty understandable. But as for Black Pink they are doing well, nominated in Best New Female Artist category in MAMA and doing well in voting and digital sales. Pentagon has 7 songs in their self-title mini album and Gorilla as their official debut MV while Black Pink has four songs and four MVs. They did well in their digital but IOI has an album out and that worries me.

I went to the Big Bang Made Tour in Manila concert with BGPH minus Dawn. I missed Lee Hi's fanconcert. I went to Epik High's concert by winning a consulation ticket GA and got a high touch and a photo op because my friend Leah from BJBS, iKON Philippines Red and now BPPH, won an FB event for the high touch.
Winner is on hiatus because of Nammie's condition. Bobby and Mino did a collaboration MOBB and made two songs.

Kpop Look-A-like season is killing me. Making me laugh and making me angry so early when I wake up at noon. (that is my morning bite me). But all in all I have been having fun. I don't go to all the events like most people think I do. And I don't always need to pay my way to their events since some events are free. But I can't go to two events in a row now. My body can't take it. I always need one day off after I go to an event. So I missed YG Fest 2 this year. November is packed with events. I am going to attend Fandom Fest on Nov 13 since I have a slam poetry entry ^^ New goals : Perform poetry on stage and not faint due to stage fright. ^^ Which reminds me, I have to memorize that poem.

So still living with Trina (she hasn't kicked my slob ass yet) and entering 2nd year of "living with a human" self-development project. I have to reach my 3rd year with some improvement. I went overboard with my supplies shopping last Sunday, almost gave my mom HB. She asked me if I bought a ticket with that money so I ended up taking a photo of the stuff I bought for her to know that I actually bought food.

Oh I went to SM Bacoor by myself last Saturday for K-Town. Yes, I almost got lost. But it was cool. I had fun.

There are so many videos and photos I haven't uploaded. I hope that when I get back home in Nov 27, I would have more time to upload everything. ^^ So much for me being a good fansite noona.

Oh my dongsaengs PHP won in the Fil-Kor Kpop Contest last Oct 15 in CCP. Then Kim Jo had to go back to Hawaii. #PHP1stWin. He performed with Hergie King, JP Soliva, and Charles (the other half of Bishop with Jo Kim) #proudnoona moments.

And ACES lost their leader and KSY so Ken B joined ACES. They debuted as a revamped unit in YGFest 2 which I missed because I am old af and was tired from K-TOWN and the Cavite to Guadalupe travel. I didn't get to sleep before I went to the event so I was sick by the time I got back home Saturday night. Note to self: Do not overdo it.

Some friends got married, divorced then now re-marrying. Some friends lost special someones and some are married, yey. Me, still single and not worried about my lovelife. I just hope love will me before I am 80.

Am I happy? Yes. Am I still not ambitious? Yes. But I am forming new dreams and revisiting old ones that are now more in tune with what I want to do.

Am I challenging myself? I think I haven't been doing this and I need to take on more money-making challenges. No more time for freebies and need to use every moment I have into something productive. Productive not just for my feels but for my pocket.

Watch out. Pinay's back. ^^

My Twin Brother from another Mother

Apparently, he found my blog I MISS JAN. Since he doesn't know that I made a public service announcement on FB (he doesn't have one) he didn't know that a lot of humans actually replied to my post. ^..^

Oh well. I can't find that post now so never mind. ^..^
It's weird that I had this Pinaywriter spidey sense to check on my emails or phone when an important message is there. Kekeke. I have been busy lately that I have been ignoring my emails constantly.

I am glad he found me. I already gave him all of my sns and cp info. ^..^ And people did look for him. He's just a ninja. Or I am just bad at googling people. I mean seriously I studied skip tracing. But I am so forgetful I don't know anything to use to search for him.

Apparently he's well and he's going to be working in a company. ^..^
I told him I am a fatass now. And all that. I am still waiting for his reply. And I will keep begging him to get a FB account together.

Seriously, how much do you have to hate Mark Z?

I wanna show him the pictures my Korean Student sent me of her trip to Google. ^..^

And this concludes the search for my Gemini Kambal. If only I can find a version of him I can rape and who also likes KPOP. We are like siblings and he my oppa from a different eomma. <3

Yatta~

Si Sandara Park at the 2NE1+8th Bday ko

Si Sandara Park trended worldwide without even a need for a hashtag.
2ne1 is coming this week. Dara will be in Gandang Gabi Vice and will visit Kuya at the PBB house.

Prior to the announcement some haters of Sandara as well as some bitter fans using the sly excuse "We pay to see her the housemates have no right to see her for free" card using the #saynotodaraonPBB hashtag and trended it. I personally made sure I unfriended the ones that I saw use this hashtag on FB. Unfortunately I was not able to catch all those who used this on my twitter account. I was busy at work so I wasn't able to catch their shit.

It's a big slap for those who trended that they didn't want her to go in. It's already well-known that Dara has a soft spot for the Philippines. She'll all but a Filipina by blood. She talks about the country as her second home. She put the country in YG's radar after getting noticed in a feature made for her. And that's been the start.

Now coming back for the continuation of THE Party for an even bigger NOLJA event, Dara remains the Krungkrung we love but just a tad bit more than that. She's gotten love, hate, support and training in love, life and in the Entertainment world. She came back with her sisters from another mother Chaerin Lee (the other half of CHAERA a one true pairing for the two women who are super close, Bom Park SsangPark/Double Park's other Park and Minzy, 2ne1's beloved eromaknae.

I for one can't wait to see her onstage. I won't be going to the hotel, airport or the mall tour. I am not a fansite noona/eonnie. I will be there in the VIP Standing screaming my heart out. I will call go POPPED on some people and let them call me when the concert is ongoing so they can listen to a song. ^.^ But that is if I can get a power bank. If not then I won't. T_T; 

Nevertheless, this MAY is epic. I won a WIN Epilogue from Kenny AKM YG Fanboys are <3
It's still in Pasig Central Post office. I haven't picked it up because I haven't had a free weekend. I am planning to go there on the May 18th after AON. So stay tuned for that. I already got the poster for the giveaway. *weird that they sent me that and not the dvd* anyway.

This is going to be my last month as a 28 year old and will also mark my last year as a woman in her 20's. And having all this much feels for my birthday month has been unbelievably great.

Also I found my bestie. He saw my I MISS JAN blog entry and he emailed me today. I can email him now. yey~ I should memorize his email. He still doesn't want to make a FB account. Tsss. Anyway. I hope I can contact him more often from now on. So happy for this May. <3

I will try to blog more that I have hooked up my kpop gmail to this blog. So forgive me if I KPOP all over your feeds.

Best. May of my life. EVER.

P.S. Please go to your twitters and start tweeting : #‎PHIsReadyFor2NE1‬
Let's Nolja~!

Other trending hashtags

Bukas: ‪#‎MABUHAYSANDARA‬
Thursday: ‪#‎MABUHAY2NE1‬ or ‪#‎WELCOMEHOME2NE1‬
Friday: ‪#‎HANDANAKAMI2NE1‬
Saturday: ‪#‎2NE1AONMANILA‬

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#PrayForSouthKorea

There are no words I can write that would be enough to show how sad this news is. I hope that the survivors will be fine. I hope that the media is not covering anything up. I hope that the missing passengers got out and will get rescued.

Please. Kpop fan or not. Kdrama fan or hater, it is our human obligation to offer at least one prayer for those who are there, those who are lost and those who have moved on to the Lord's welcoming arms.

Always there are heroes to be told. And there is a young man who was supposed to be enjoying his birthday in Jeju Island with his classmates to have a memory he would cherish for a lifetime. Instead he is dead. But the lives he saved would live on for him, would carry his bravery for him and tell the world, each and every person they encounter, that there was once a class president unlike any other, a chingu who was brave and would have made an upstanding member of society had it not be for April 15, 2014.

My deepest condolences and my prayers goes out to the people affected and the nation awashed in grief.
I hope politicians use this time to make their party seem better than the current administration's because people are definitely going to eat them alive if they did.

Pics and news here 

I highlighted the news posts in my fanpage pls check it there. 

Second Life taking over

So I made a kpop spazz account. It's currently in RP mode for RapMonster. Originally I was going to use it to RP Seunghyun Choi's assassin character from IRIS. But I got lazy so I used it as Pinaywriter Choi instead. Now It's Namjoonie Saranghe. If you don't know who he is, don't bother. You are probably in my Pinaywriter Simone Simon account. And you are not a kpop fan. So I have ALMOST cleared out my original account of the KPOP people. Some are still there, the people who I want to see my IG post and those who I can't remove or transfer over because for the life of me, I don't know if they are from my second life in KPOP or they are part of my writing group.

On that note. I have been remiss on my job as the EIC. Again. *insert excuses here* But the spazzing on my RP account is not to be used as a sample that I have a lot of time on my hand. I don't. I usually have it open so I can scoop people out from my second life to work for my current company.

About that. I am now officially the Group leader for Team Mojo-jojo. Yes. Of course my team has the villain name. Because I am such an evil person. Kekeke. I have 5 people under my supervision. May the gods have mercy on their souls. So far so good. But it's an adjustment because I have two modes, DGAF mode and OCD mode. So imagine the adjustment my team would have to experience.

I know I should check my other facebook account more often. Before I know it more weddings would pass me by and more babies would be missed to coo at.

But I am happy I am able to compartmentalize now. I can unleash my crazy spazz self on one and I can keep my nonkpop friends away from my craziness.

But I am still writing. Unfortunately, it's work books. So yeah.
I still prefer this that doing something I am not good at and not happy about. It's not work if you enjoy what you are doing.

So on that note. I think I should blog more. Since life is not so boring these days.

Though the wildest thing I have done these days is have a Buin (wifey) on my roleplayer Facebook account.
People really think I am a guy. Seriously. T_T

Anyway. It's fun so I will leave it as is.

I still need to buy a gift for the TOP photo winner since the book I bought turned out to have a part 3. Killmenao. I hope I find balance soon.

But definitely as of April 3, my creativity is definitely being redirected to work and kpop. I just need to make sure I balance it out and include TOP and fiction writing again.

Oh and I have 4k emails on my pinaywriter gmail. Fick me.