Divide and Conquer

If you are like me who works best alone. You must be beside your mind. ^.^

I have heard about teamwork and delegating work as good strategies to get a project done in record time. But I can honestly say, and my old bosses can vouch for this, that I work best alone. But this recent project has shown me that there is indeed strength in numbers and that my limitations can be augmented by the strength of others.

I know, it's pretty late for me to realize this when I have been thrust into group work since grade school. But I have always been the kind who wanted to do things my way and others could just follow me or get out of the way. I pretend to take people's ideas in but in reality I am just checking if they are thinking along the lines of what I was already planning to do.

This frustrates a lot of people. But I also have a pet peeve that matches this personality tick that I have. It's people who just complain but never do anything or suggest anything productive. And I am glad to say, I don't have anyone in this project who is like that. There are still those who do things their own way but somehow it works. And they are able to make great contributions to what needs to be done.

Having people you like work on something you would rather be doing than wasting your life away looking at the work clock and doing a Nakamura to make it go faster, feels great. Despite the need to pump myself with caffeine and chocolates to rush my creative juices, I find that there is a kind of peace in this kind of existence.

I wake up (or try to) as early as I can to get to work (as early as I can). [Yes, I know. I surprise myself as well.] And endure the commute (which as you know I really hate doing since it's a torture on my nose and feet as well as a challenge to my claustrophobic tendencies to be on the subway) to get to where my new office is. Just so I can do something that I would otherwise not have seen myself doing in...ever. And taking responsibilities like the one I am tasked to do now never cross my mind in the last three years since E-lamp. I didn't want to because I felt like my skill set didn't match anything they wanted me to do. Or I didn't want to do it because I felt like I would just be overexerting myself for someone else's profit. I was told that this year the best thing to do is to work on a project with friends. And that is exactly what I am doing right now. I am working on something creative and useful and I am among new and old friends.

So what if I am a bit tired and on a coffee buzz? I am sure I can handle it. And I don't catch myself daydreaming anymore or thinking that I am somewhere else doing something other than what I am supposed to do.

And I know there aren't a lot of people who can say that about what they do to pay their bills. But I can. Bohemian or not. I am glad I went back. And I am staying for as long as possible.


p.s.

Sometimes the greed that is found in the world astounds me. And it irks me when I am the one who gets caught up in the wake of it. Like a fisherman in a freaking storm surge. I expect that I am going to need a new brain after all this is done. T_T

Overcoming Kryptonite

People know my kryptonite is deadlines. This is why I can't finish Nanowrimo though I make a play for it every year. This is why I can't get published. (That and because I am such a lazy writer, the more you pressure me to write, the lazier I get.)

But I think working on the research and development team would help me to get things going. I always write on a whim and had forgotten the training I got when I was in high school and college. Though even then I have always been a photo-finisher kind of student. I was amongst those who ran up the stairs of the department building that houses the faculty just so I can make it to the deadline.

So I think having to work on something under extreme time pressure would help me train how to manage my time better. And asking people to meet their deadline does make me feel embarrassed when I sense that I am working a lot slower than other members of my team.

I know that I can complain about it but what I just need to do is deliver. And if my OCD about this would kick in, we would never get anything done. It's interesting to learn my weaknesses too. I suck at making activities. I can fart out a dialogue like I just ate a whole basket of kamote but when I face the bold ACTIVITY word on my word document I am stumped. This part takes me the longest to finish. So I tried making the activity part first just to make sure it's out of the way once I get the dialogue going. But sometimes even that takes too long.

Don't misunderstand. I am not complaining at all. This is actually a lot of fun. #goodkindastress kind of stuff make me feel both crazy (because there is so much to do) and fulfilled that I am actually able to use my writing skills for something worthwhile and work-related. It seems daunting and there are a lot of things that I need to read up on, especially new teaching methods. (I suddenly envy friends who go to teaching seminars) I know that there are limitations to the methods that we can use online and there might not be enough time to uptrain our teachers to the new methods. But it wouldn't hurt to improve on an existing idea.

I think if I was in a real faculty room, I would be that half-crazed over-worked teacher who has her toes in every activity in school. And that doesn't sit well with me. My lazy nature abhors overexertion except if I am truly passionate about something.

So yeah. I am having fun stressing myself out over English activities and dialogues. #mylifesoboring But for the first time this year. I actually know what the heck I am doing. So it's all good.

Good Kind of Stress

I think I have said this before but I will say it again. If you like what you do it's not work. I am sure some people agree with me on this. I am currently working on something that makes me want to pull all my hair out. BUT I am having fun with it. For once my being a writer actually helps me out at work. I just know that I am not a big fan of deadlines. But when it's work-related, there is always a need to work on someone else's time. Ergo, deadlines must be followed. Otherwise, you're dead in the metaphorical sense of the word. (I hope!)

I was told that the current genre I am on is a dead-end and that I have to focus my creative juices on something else. I think this is it. I hope it is. Because if it is then I am up for another reading. (Since everything has already happened. Now that I think about it, it's pretty cool. So A, if you are reading this, how and when can I get another reading?)

I need to go to work earlier tomorrow so I can get more things done. I can't for the life of me, write serious stuff at home. That and I do not have internet connection at my place which I need for all the Googling that my brain requires nowadays. (What happened to those good ol' days when I had to reach for an encyclopedia to get information, huh? Gone, I tell you!)

But all in all I am having crazy stressful FUN doing what I am currently doing. I just wish for more time to develop what needs to be made. Because I can't get my OCD to kick in since there is not enough time to get things done. Surely in the future we can "revise" or "update" what we will come up with. And it's all a matter of re-sending the data to the people who would be using it.

There are a lot of things that needs to be done. I need to learn how to do a lot of things. And I hope the result would not be too ordinary.

Write. Read. Revise.

I can actually smell blood inside my nose. It's a good indication that my brain is overheating. I can come up with ideas for scenarios but I can't write coherently right now. Anything that would be written from here on out will be garbage. So I just need to rest and wake up tomorrow so I can make the rest of it.

Friday is after all just a few hours or so away. *nail bite*

Student Mail is Sarang

Student mail is pure sarang. 

I used to have a few other emails that I get from students who tell me that they have graduated and they make it a point to tell me that they still remember me. There are some student who I am in touch with via FB and at times they would leave a comment or I would drop a line on their walls. ^.^ But those are rare.

I am glad to hear from Lucy. ^.^ I remember enjoying talking to her and her brother. ^.^ Thought it's been a while and I can't remember their faces. T_T But I am sure their screencap is in my hard disk somewhere. ^.^

Do you have any memorable teachers? I do, too. ^.^

My student Teddy ^,^

Kpop, First Week & FanNoona Duties

As more balls are thrown it to juggle, I would find that organizing things to my need would come in handy. I think that there would have to be a lot that I would have to organize in my new work station to help me get things running smoothly. There are more students added to my roster and I would have to deal with new people again. *rubs hands in excitement*

This week had passed by without me noticing the days. The hours fly when you are not constantly waiting for the proverbial school bell to go off. I am looking forward to learning how to handle my class list on Monday.

I will be going all Kpop crazy during the weekend. I would have to check out 2ne1's new video and all news that a blackjack must know. And I would have to check up on who won at MAMA. *Let it be my Goddesses* and check out their comeback stage. *getting too giddy as I type this*

And of course, I have to do my FangirlNoona duties and upload the KNation4 pictures and the videos that accompany them. God, help my wifi. If I can, I might check out my dongsaengs at Star Mall but I am not sure yet. Depends on whether I can finish uploading or not. *cries when she remembers that some pictures were corrupted = read as white out = when she cropped them at her sister's computer = I swear her pc is an anti-kpop beotch. I lost all of my Mr Kface Idol aka Riri Pics and several others. God I hope they were not too special. If they were I ask my co-fangirls forgiveness for trying to crop them...TT_TT


Anyway. I have to go to a group hang after work. With alcohol. How very keryan of us. ^.^

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Good luck to my liver. Kidding. I probably would keep it on a low alcohol night since I would be traveling with to Batangas after. ^.^

Here's to my first week officially back, kampai!~

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