Thursday, May 31, 2012

Free Pizza on my Birthday!

Okay, I can't like all the Happy birthday to me's here. So I am going to do it like this.

To my family, you are my rock.
To my parents, you are the protagonist in the best love story ever told.
To my soulmate sistahs and bros, you are the bling I would never do without.
To my friends and the people who have been a part of my life, my heart remembers you even if your names leak out of my head most of the time.
To my former students, I hope that you continue to practice what I taught you and remember your Samantha or Natasha,
To my former officemates, you guys made earning money a lot of fun.
To my former bosses, thanks for trusting me.
To my TOP family, I love you guys kahit makulit kayo!
To my readers, sorry di ako nakakapagsulat lately. 
To my frenimies, how's life in general?
To all the fabulous bloggers I met, read and admire, keep on writing!~
To my former beloveds, thank you for the lessons in what I want and what I need.
To my future partner in crime, father of my saplings and horder of my love, *waves* stay safe and get here when you can. I am not in a hurry, I am busy being awesome.

To one and all who made my 27th years an adventure, I pray we all share a laugh or two again in the future. Or maybe later.

Thanks to Shakey's for my free pizza!~Next year ulet!

my sister made this for me ehehe kyopta


 

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Fangirl Mode4.0 :Rock of Ages in Manila!




I can't breathe right now. I remember that months before I had gotten the news that Rock of Ages will come to Manila. It was like hearing the Rent would come to Manila. But the best thing about is was that MIG AYESA WOULD BE IN HIS ROLE! I even got tips to book a certain seat at a certain spot to make sure that I would hyperventilate from MIG-asm. (Did that sound dirty, I apologize if it did. I am spazzing. I just found out that BIG BANG is also coming to Manila. And since I do have a better paying job there is a bigger chance of going to both things I don't care if it's just in a tiny dark corner but to be able to BE there would just be amazing!)



I would not miss this for the world. And unlike the Big Bang concert, I know the dates for the Rock of Ayesa...I mean Rock of Ages. My friend Reina would kill me if I don't watch it. I would do so in my Got Mig shirt that I got from him and his very very very nice manager who mailed me that shirt for my Birthday.  


 Btw, it's almost my birthday now too, so I feel sooooooooo happy to be looking forward to the show. I need to watch on a weekend so as to maximize the time I can daydream after. Oh, please, you do that too. Come on.

So there Philippine Dates are...




I soo need a credit card right now.

How much are the tickets. Must Google information...

Found this from Atlantic Production, an interview with Mig. I need to call them from a landline...and ask for the prices. I wonder where I could go to actually buy the tickets. I have to ask my friend where Carlos P Romulo Auditorium is. I live in Makati but for the love of God, I don't know if that is where we had the Rent Musical from last time. I lost my old phone so my old ticket provider couldn't sms me anymore. T_T I saw some prizes from sulit.com for the tickets. I am still not sure when I would watch. It has to be a weekend. And I swear to God if I get to watch an understudy and not Mig I would cry like a river of bloody angry fierce tears.

I need to watch on a Saturday but not a 2pm one. Too early for some of my friends, or is it? Hmmm...I think it was made for people who are on the night shift. Teehee. I want to waaaatch...the rehearsal!!! Seriously, I miss being part of a production. Who do I have to call to be able to hand people props for this show. I would love to be a bright eyed college girl on my OJT in this production. That would be awesome beyond words. 


Prize research :

Found this in sulit.com.ph
I would need 2k for orchesta, 700 for balcony and 1500 for the loge. And the good news is I know where this place is! Yey! this is where I watched Rent before. *hits forehead with hand* duh. Yey! I can walk there.

Wouldn't it be cool if I could walk to see Mig having coffee at Sbux. Too bad my friend no longer works in this building. That would be a cool fangirl elevator moment!~

I'd settle for watching the musical with him in it. I hope he feels better when he comes over. Rest well, M! We can't wait to hear you sing again!

 

Monday, May 28, 2012

Rain makes me crazy emo

I saw that BIG BANG mah oppas are going to go the Philippines then saw a post around October from the time when JD Khe died from a new fb friend who added me. I couldn't help but spazz out on the first news and hope I can save money for it. I will tuck away money just in case. Then I am now wiping my snot in a computer shop, took my glasses and just let the tears fall.

I always hate me being such a bundle of emotions in inappropriate times. It's hard for me to accept death, not a lot of people know that about me. Guess that cat's out of the bag. It's the biggest of changes, something everyone who reads my blog knows I hate so much but have to deal with.

There is not more see you later and catch you when you have free time after someone dies. It's more like this life is one long wait for the final till we meet again.

When I went to Erren and Liay's wedding, I felt him there. I knew he wouldn't miss it for the world.

Anyway, my life seems so simple and useless compared to his life. Still watching Kpop bands makes me happy, even just for a little while.

I hope I can get tickets. VIPs are a crazy bunch. It might be sold out by now. Simon, bite your tongue!
http://bigbangph.org/2012/05/announcement-bigbang-alive-world-tour-philippines-confirmed/

 

27 things on my 27th

1.      Boracay with friends. Flabby or penniless, even if I have to aparate to get there.
2.      Get confirmed at work. If not achieved, then get a new job with a good salary in a good company (like there is any better than where you are now)
3.      Loose 20 kgs or more.
4.      Go on a blind date once (when #3 is done) with a decent guy. WATCH BIGBANG CONCERT IN THE PHILIPPINES. Even if I have to go hungry for ages.
5.      Finish and write (and give) the storyline for YOBO to Norby.
6.      WRITE AND POST The Mista Series (working title)
7.      Finish BBBS edits
8.      Finish writing and post THE BigB series
9.      READ and EDIT the novels on my HD and Eros (my laptop) - Finish at least two novels (read and edit) in a month. Start in June 2012.
10.  Buy a flashdrive to make it easier to transfer data from EROS to JD (tablet)
11.  Save at least 50,000-70,000
12.  Pay my mom my debt (once #11 is done)
13.  Get a working internet connection at my apartment (pray that witribe has signal in my spot)
14.  Go to church to pray as often as possible, if not more than 5 days a week.
15.  Clean my room and keep it that way.
16.  Organize things to make space for “Writing area” in room.
17.  Watch Mig Ayesa's concert if I have money. If not achieved, buy new album nevertheless.
18.  Get a credit card with my name on it. Do not overuse.
19.  Learn something new every day.
20.  Write a blog everyday if possible.
21.  Writing time – block an hour or two to write every day. (write a blog entry or write something for the novels you have/or write down your edit marks for a book that you are reading on JD)
22.  Met a man who can make me feel giddy and knows how to reply to an sms message.
23.  Attend all weddings of friends and relatives – enjoy telling people you never want to get married but love the wedding itself and the food.
24.  Never become a negastar and avoid them at all times. (unless company required and under the pain of death)
25.  Laugh as often as possible. Make people who are around happy to be around you. That means listening more talking less. ^.^
26.  Watch as many foreign films as you possibly can during the free festivals. Preferably with someone who actually likes them.
27.  Go on leave for May 30th and 31st of 2013. Make sure to include the weekend then go to the beach or a trip with a beloved or go home and enjoy the fiesta like you used to. Make sure to buy Mernel's cake for your birthday. 

 

BLUE DAYS Gift and the 27th list




I have a theory. This has something to do with what M told me once. That for me to get my period I have to have my hormones in a particular range so that I would get blue days. And it required exercises that have to be done. But I have no time to exercise because I am a work or in bed these days. But I found that something else made me get my blue days.

It was the giddiness.

I don't know if that was  symptom or the cure. I can't safely say that he was the cure for that. Meds didn't work. I was supposed to buy a different set but I didn't really have the time to buy it. I had forgotten all about and then boom, today of all days, six days before my 27th birthday, blue day one for 2012.

I had hoped to get my reproductive system working normally, that is why I moved to a company that had medical benefits. But then shortly after attending and listening attentively, I found that they didn't cover the things that I needed. Or maybe I just haven't read the booklet as well as I should have.

Still, it gave me a bit of piece of mind. I am still under a lot of stress at work now. Mostly it is self-inflicted and I want to continue to improve to make the coaching and the effort of the people who helped me get to this level all worth it. I mean, I studied units in education. The only way that a teacher can feel better about a student is if that student does better than the teacher or at least doesn't become a an embarrassment. So far, my level is 42-70. My maximum comes with a lot of luck and a lot of ra's. Still from 25-37 that is a pretty big leap, almost twice as much. Still. I hope that I continue to learn how to shorten my talk time and get better at making decisions for my accounts. This all sounds greek to those who are not in my line of business, but I am sure some do.

Going back. I am not really that equipped to go to the beach or be unemployed if I don't get confirmed or regularized. So I am thinking that I need to ask for some help from friends who actually know how to handle their money. What works for them and for my who make less than what they earn and have more expenses than they do since I live on my own and can't cook (not allowed where I live and can't cook without burning everything). My rent eats up most of my money and that is just fine. Having my own space is bliss. Except my bliss is full of clutter.

I am thinking that this, the blue days has nothing to do with the giddiness. The giddiness I got from my new crush is a manifestation of the prayers Chinese lucky charm grandma placed on the charm she gave me. It's not that I don't believe in that, but it's made me significantly less stressed. I also go to church more often now. I live so near one anyway. No, no masses yet but I go there to light a candle to pray for his and his co-soldiers' safety in their area and his friends too. I write prayers of thanksgiving and petitions for things and people that I am grateful for as well as things and people that I am hopeful  for. Then there is the writing these blogs almost everyday. Some days I don't because hello nothing really happens at work that I can write about and I really don't want to document any negative thoughts or negathrons. Since as per Chinese lucky charm grandma said to only surround myself with positivity.

I noticed however that I work best when running against a negative statistic. Meaning if I am at the pits, I tend to be more competitive,not with everyone else like some people I know but with myself. I don't know if this is what people call self-motivated. I call it personal goals. I don't care if others are better than me or that I am doing better than others. All I want to do is to learn new things that would ease my work and make me like it better. I find that learning new things is my thing.
For example, today I learned how to say “Mahilig ka bang magbasa ng libro?” [Do you like/enjoy reading books?] in Ilocano. According to my father, it is “Naayat ka aya nga agbasa iti libro?” [Na-a-yat ka a-ya nga ag-ba-sa i-ti lib-ro?] Before I only know yes - “wen” and “You are handsome” - “Nag gwapo ka” and a few other lines that I don't want to write here since this is a wholesome blog entry. Still there is one that I like the most, [Ay-a-ya-ten-ka] which is “Ay ayaten ka.” - “I love you.” in the Ilocano dialect. My father is from Angadanan in Isabela so he's half-Ilocano from my grandpa's side and half-Batanguenyo from my grandma's side. I am thinking that my dad's Batanguenyo side might not be the one whom I find appealing since compared to my uncle's and the men I have dated from that half of him, had fallen from the pedestal. They tend to not be the perfectly imperfect guy I want. Maybe it's the Ilocano side of my father that actually made him better than the rest of the men who courted my mother at that time.

Perhaps that theory would have more weight if I had more exposure to them. Still I want to learn Ilocano. I hope there would be a book or an interesting person who can do that with me. Still he doesn't seem to want to do it. *rolls eyes upward*

The thing that he doesn't know about me, is that I am either relentless or easily bored. He can run away and never speak to me again but that won't stop me from liking him. He doesn't have to like me back and I don't even need reciprocation. What people don't understand from recovering hopeless romantics is that were can live with the thirst for love for many many many moons.

But once we find a different watering hole to go to and search for, no amount of splashing us with the old well's water would make us go back.

Still *looks around * I think I really need to make time to clear up my room's mess. I think the energy in my room is blocked that is why I am getting sicker. But after drinking the co-amoxiclab and the cough meds they gave me at the clinic I have stopped coughing excessively.

I got my Value Creation score today. It's meets. I am thinking that I need to do that same for my life. Make it a metric for my life. To make it better. Start with my PP scores that is following policies and procedure. Then make enough but not too much Connections with customers which would be family, friends and new people. Then value creation, make the right kinds of decisions so that I would have more good things happen to me and do more things in the limited time that I have between work and rest.

This weekend I have to go to a wedding, I am sure I would be a photographer/fat girl who is still single but already going to be 27 in several days time. Then I have to attend a funeral on Sunday. Yes, there is a wedding and a funeral. It's bizarre, I know but nevertheless that is my weekend. I would not but anything on Friday when I have to be with Her Royal Highness with the Third Prince when we go to Divi. I have to buy just one pair of Hello Kitty glasses for my sister (her star city day is gone forever since there is a funeral to attend on Sunday) and a gift for someone at work. I don't need anything else, except maybe rainy day shoes and dvds. But unlike the time we went there for my JD (china tablet) I don't plan any big expenditures. I need to remember that I make a third of what Her Royal Highness does. And she can shop enough for the both of us. Though she claims to be only needed to find a single dress. Surely we would visit her favorite shoe store first and her brother is coming so that might lead to some other guy stuff hunting. I am looking forward to finding out where I can buy goth-themed thing since I have loved that since my ma-luk days.

So I won't be able to clean my room. But I have to remember to have my clothes washed. I am thinking that perhaps it would be a better idea to just bring my clothes home for washing. Still that would require carrying them and I am too darn lazy. Still, it's more economical. So I am thinking that I could just do that this once. I have to warn the new maid. She might faint from exhaustion.

I am going to meet up with my friends J and A on the 11th of June. I wonder if we have work on the 12th. I hope not so I could spend the day chatting with them from the night of the 11th to as late as we can. But Makati is no Elbi, in the latter we can sit in the grass and chat away the hours. In Makati, it's a little less laid-back and more expensive. I told them to aid me with saving and money handling tips. Then I would bring my cosmo and my witty mind full of things I did in my shady life to help them fire up their already cozy lives with their beloveds. That's what crazy single friends are for, right? Besides, we haven't met up since one of us became a geisha, I mean went to Japan. I am sure Ate J is rocking Nihon. But I really wish I can visit there.

I swear I am going to name my daughter Sakura, damn the naruto references. She's going to be a flower and that's that. Or if I don't have kids, I can name my dog that. ;-) Depends on what life I would have, that of a spinster or a wifey.

Still right now, my worries are little. I still have a lot of stuff on my 26 things to do for my 26th year that I didn't get to do like make YOBO 4 onwards script. Yes, Norby I have not forgotten, just haven't gotten around to writing it. I am thinking that I should write it like a story then have him interpret it in the comics. Because I think of the format but I draw a blank. But the plot points are in my head. They have been swimming there for the longest time. Way too long if you ask Norby.

I will revisit my list, transfer some to my 27 things to do on my 27th year. Then By God, I am doing those things. Not vauge things, like the ones I wanted to put my my 365 days of 2012 that I never really got to finish and list down or do (though some of them I am working on). I think I can do better with just 27 things to do.

Number one on that list

1.      Boracay with friends. Flabby or penniless, even if I have to aparate to get there.
2.      Get confirmed at work. If not achieved, then get a new job with a good salary in a good company (like there is any better than where you are now)
3.      Loose 20 kgs or more.
4.      Go on a blind date once (when #3 is done) with a decent guy.
5.      Finish and write (and give) the storyline for YOBO to Norby.
6.      WRITE AND POST The Mista Series (working title)
7.      Finish BBBS edits
8.      Finish writing and post THE BigB series
9.      READ and EDIT the novels on my HD and Eros (my laptop) - Finish at least two novels (read and edit) in a month. Start in June 2012.
10.  Buy a flashdrive to make it easier to transfer data from EROS to JD (tablet)
11.  Save at least 50,000-70,000
12.  Pay my mom my debt (once #11 is done)
13.  Get a working internet connection at my apartment (pray that witribe has signal in my spot)
14.  Go to church to pray as often as possible, if not more than 5 days a week.
15.  Clean my room and keep it that way.
16.  Organize things to make space for “Writing area” in room.
17.  Watch Mig Ayesa's concert if I have money. If not achieved, buy new album nevertheless.
18.  Get a credit card with my name on it. Do not overuse.
19.  Learn something new every day.
20.  Write a blog everyday if possible.
21.  Writing time – block an hour or two to write every day. (write a blog entry or write something for the novels you have/or write down your edit marks for a book that you are reading on JD)
22.  Met a man who can make me feel giddy and knows how to reply to an sms message.
23.  Attend all weddings of friends and relatives – enjoy telling people you never want to get married but love the wedding itself and the food.
24.  Never become a negastar and avoid them at all times. (unless company required and under the pain of death)
25.  Laugh as often as possible. Make people who are around happy to be around you. That means listening more talking less. ^.^
26.  Watch as many foreign films as you possibly can during the free festivals. Preferably with someone who actually likes them.
27.  Go on leave for May 30th and 31st of 2013. Make sure to include the weekend then go to the beach or a trip with a beloved or go home and enjoy the fiesta like you used to. Make sure to buy Mernel's cake for your birthday.

Crushes Come and Go


I am happy to be inspired. I am glad that at random points of my work, I smile for absolutely no reason. I will not call it love or like even, I just call it giddy. And that helps me because my voice is less strained because of that.

My mom told me to loose weight first before I go giddy for anyone. I raised an eyebrow at that sms and I had to smile. My parents, I am sure would like for me to be thinking of the same things that the other people that are in my batch are doing and thinking. I have to shake my head and smile.

It's a crush. And it's fading.

I wonder if I could have a crush on a good guy who was closer to me. Then again that's a pretty tall order. I am just glad that I have a new crush. Though it's fading pretty fast.

I guess it's true that I get bored waaaay to easily. I am sure he is a nice guy but I think I need to have a crush has propinquity as well. The thing is, there are just no cute, matikas, taller than me, eyeglasses-wearing men around me that I have a crush on.

Oh well. I should just focus on my work and use my crush-bliss to increase my accounts per hour and make me less stressed out at work.

Still. I am glad to have a new crush. I would add to my crush list soon. I have two now. One from work, which already died a natural death, the feeling of the crush, not the person. And my new crush. Maybe I should go to the mall, or parks or visit places where there are more people more often so I can find a few new crushes. The problem is striking a conversation and often I find that people bore me or they don't hold an ounce of humor or wit that I like.

I don't want to blow up my crush out of proportion. It would ruin my crush-bliss sooner. This is the main reason why I can block out the incessent buzzing of a certain bird that I would rather pluck than watch. Whenever I get irritated, I just remember the wedding and a conversation that made me feel like I could go back to making just those kinds of conversations. I avoid having those kinds of talks, where I pry information from a person that I have marked. It's not as bad as it sounds. It's just that I thought that doing that again would be terrifying. When I met Ico it was just a moment of me enjoying and I was not really flirting. This was me being the inner me joining the outer me. People sees me in a different way so they don't really know what is the inner me or what I feel like when I do have those conversations. It's akin to how beautiful women bat their eyelashes. In my case, it's how I carry out a conversation. Communications has it's many uses, the coolest of it would be to try to get someone you have your eye on to pay attention to you. I also know body language. And I know for a fact that he as not into me based on the way he was not facing me. But do I care? Not even a little bit.

A crush is a crush is a crush. What he thinks of me doesn't really matter. I just have a crush on him. I don't care if he likes me or not. Just the experience of liking someone new is refresshin and makes me feel less bored with my life. Hahahhaha.

People underestimate the need for new experiences and for meeting new people. I would like to think that when I learn new things and meet new people, I make small changes in my life and my personality is somehow enhanced by it. Not a single stranger, not a single conversation is useless. Things are just beginning to be better for me. I feel more like my inner self is coming out. I just need to reduce the space that my inner self is staying in maybe about 20-25kgs of less space. :-)

Being happy is not about meeting someone who I can love. Or who can love me back. It's more knowing that I am still capable of crushes, giddiness and perhaps even love. I haven't experienced it. Really felt it. I have loved people, boys, men and still I am not sure if that is the love that I want to have in my life. I have weird standards or lack of it.

Once I remember some palm reader told me that I don't care what my beloved does for a living. Another told me I would get married to the second serious boyfriend that I would have. But then what qualifies as serious? Is it length, then I've had two already. But the thing is, I don't think that is the meaning of serious in this case. I have never thought of marrying anyone, I just thought that I could do that in the future as the same way that people decide to go to college. But then again, I don't know anyone right now who fits the bill of what Liay said she looked for, a man like her father.

So it all boils down to finding a hardworking, funny, intelligent, loving, loyal man who would not cheat lie or steal when it come to the woman he loves. And that, crushes can't really fit into that role. I know so very little and wish to know less since the giddiness disappears when you get involved.

I will keep my crushes and just stay put. I will have to be found, since looking for that treasure of a man has made me a miner of fool's gold.  



Monday, May 14, 2012

TOP writers Contributers: update : Title Page

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Rosas ng Digma
Akda ni
Pinaywriter
(Nina Rita Simon)

Teaser Line : Wala akong ibang kinatakutan sa buhay ko kundi ang mawala ka sa piling ko. 


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TITLE : TIMES NEW ROMAN 44
NAME : TIMES NEW ROMAN 20
TEASER LINE : TIMES NEW ROMAN 22


Teaser:
Habang nasa isang sikretong misyon na hindi natapos ng kanyang yumaong kapatid, natagpuan ni Efrim ang babaeng magpapabago ng kanyang buhay. Pero papaano niyang makukuha ang puso ng dalagang galit sa lahat ng mga militar?
Hindi sukat akalain ni Lia na magkakaroon siya ng utang na loob sa isang sundalo. Dati nang nasira ng mga sundalo ang buhay niya nang masabak sa engkwentro ang kanyang kapatid at kasintahan. Muli na naman bang mapupuno ng pait ang kanyang buhay dahil sa nagmamahal siya ng isang taong na inuuna ang tungkulin nito sa bayan kaysa sa kanya?


TEASER : TIMES NEW ROMAN 22

Chapter One

AYOKO!” malakas na sigaw ni Lia nang magising mula sa masamang panaginip na paulit-ulit niyang nakikita tuwinang ipinipikit niya ang mga mata. “Tama na….” impit ang iyak niya. Ayaw niyang marinig ng inang niya ang kanyang pagtaningis. Tiningnan niya ang orasang nasa gilid na lamesita sa tabi ng higaan. Alas kwarto. Lagi na lamang sa ganoong oras ay nagigising siya, nalukuban siya ng kilabot dahil hindi niya malilimutan ang isang alas-kwatrong nagdaan na nakaukit na sa kanyang pagkatao.
“Lia!” humahangos ang kanyang kapatid nang pumasok ito sa kusina.
“Kuya? Anong-?” nakita niya ang duguang damit nito. Hindi niya naiwasang matilian sa dami niyon.
Blah blah blah




Everyday is Mother's Day

Disclaimer: Blog entry made on actual Mother's day. Did not go online. 


Mother's day in our house is on May 7th, not the second Sunday of May like what every female-targeting advertising announced it to be. It's simply because that is my Inay's birthday. This year I went home for the weekend before our mother's day since her birthday landed on a Monday. My little sister and I joined my parents for my dad's company outing. I had to sleep in a tent and give up sleep all day Saturday to being in a tent room and not being able to lounge around in comfort. But I think my parents liked it there and there is a chance I would have to do this again. They didn't wake me up for the bonfire which I was waiting for. They ended up with blurry night pictures but they had fun while I rested so I guess it's win-win.

My mom, as most of my blogger friends and readers already know is a superwoman for me. And I am not even kidding how many kids she has raised apart from me and my brother. But this is a common occurrence in the province, the most rooted and stable aunt ends up bringing up kids in lieu of grandmothers not being available. Still at 26, I don't feel like a good daughter just yet. I am still about 20% of the woman my mother was when she was 26. She was already a mother, married and has a job that she kept all the way to her 50's. I am working towards getting confirmed in my new job, that means regularized for us all, I am still working towards self-improvement and perhaps spinsterhood (which I don't dread really with kind of  men that have been churning up around me) and I don't really know if I would be able to have children in the future. But still I would never ever settle for anything else than the kind of love and relationship my parents found in each other. They say that it is hard to put a family together is yours was broken, then they haven't seen the girls who struggle to find the man who would fit the bill and give them the love their parents have. It's harder when you know that the standard set by your father is too high.

On mother's day we give flowers, thank you letters and gifts to our mother. I gave my mom two packs of babyruth. ^.^ I had originally thought of giving my sister money to buy my mom something on the actual international mother's day but I forgot. Nevertheless, I will make it up to her by going to Star City on the 27th to help her watch my cousins and sister go on the rides. I am not big on heights and would end up taking pictures and watching their bags that is for certain but I wouldn't mind except that I have to go to work at 9pm so I would have to sleep in then take the rest of my time going to work.

In my life I have met different kinds of mothers and have seen and felt different kinds of love from them. There are those who are practical mothers, who show their love in teaching and nagging. There are those smotherers who spoil their children to the point that their child needs to rebel to be able to find a semblance of self or end up being exactly like them only towards their own relationships. There are those who are highlighters. They arrive on graduations, weddings, and major life events and have to be away, by choice or preference, from their children and family most of the time. Then there are those who are ghosts, they are there physically but can't be reached out on to raise their children or to even look at them. But then there are the HëirMöther,Stamom's and Dragon ladies. They are the extreme versions of carino brutal. The first one would insist that there is only one kind of person that is valuable in the world and that is the class from which they belong and would control their child from being close to anyone else. The Stamom would make sure their child follows just one way of living and the values that they must follow are only those that are in their mother's book of living and values. Lastly the Dragon Ladies would make their children the perfect prodigy to the point that their social skills are lacking being of lack of interaction with humans as supposed to instruments and learning devices.

No, these classifications are not to lower down or belittle these kinds of mothers, it's just to enumerate the kinds that they seem on the surface. But underneath all the tags is the heart that would love from womb to tomb. Sometimes we forget that our mothers were women and people apart from us before we came to be. We only know a side of them and not all. As I grew older, I found that it was easier to understand my mother and to admire her for all that she has done and all that she is doing. I realized that in order to find a man who would hold me close in his sleep and would be my life partners for decades and decades I would have to be a woman after my mother. It was not the search for the perfectly imperfect man that was difficult. It was being a woman who would be able to draw that kind of man's attention towards me that was extremely hard. My mother and I are not the same, though her love has a compartment in my heart. I tap into it whenever I feel like life is not as great as I had hoped or when I am feeling exceptionally vulnerable. Then there is that Inay folder in my head where all the recordings of the nagging...este...life lesson video and audio files are stored for me to play whenever I am thinking of whether or not I should do something. The sound quality and the video quality are not as good as it was but my hearing is better and my inner eye makes me understand the message better.

What I learned from my parents can't fit in a book let alone a time blog.

But I would believe that when I have my own child, if ever I do and have a husband, if ever he gets around to meeting me, I would apply the things that I learned from my mother.

1.      When really mad do not speak. Sometimes the words you would say wounds both side and leaves scars that would never go away.
2.      When really happy laugh and smile. Share your happiness with your friends and family and you would soon realize that one small thing like a new pair of shoes and your daughter in a dress had made ripples of good energy.
3.      Be honest in the way you do your work and you would be rewarded with a trust that can not be shaken.
4.      Love like you are not asking for anything in return or even thinking of it. Because the love that you send out into the world, has a way of coming back like a boomerang.
5.      Always believe that you can do it and if your self-confidence is not enough, don't leave it to chance, get some back-up and pray.

There are more, like I said, that I learned from mothers and women who are about to be mothers. But someday, even if I never become one, I would continue to apply the things my mother taught me. I just wish that one of these days I would fulfill my own dream of being able to help out at home. One girl shoes step at a time I suppose.

To all the mothers out there, you are THE WOMAN! Blessed are we your children for the love that you gave us and the lessons you continually remind us. Thank you for the support and the sacrifice that you have given and done for us. We might not always be that good at expressing our gratitude but let it be known that without you, there wouldn't be a me. A gazillion thanks for all that you are and all that you have made us, your kiddos out to be.